jdsmum i always get stopped several times when i go out cos of her hair and the ooohhh shes a new one and im like no shes 12.5 weeks old but born at 32 weeks lol

i use nappy past vant remember the name but i found the paste better protected the bums lol just mo though

well ive been going out the last few night for drinks so been putting her on formula when out and now im gonna just do it at night though i feel really guilty(dont mean to offend ppl who ff) but im feeling bad cos its happened cos i wanted time to enjoy myself and i feel bad like ive lost something ,i just keep reminding myself that nights werent going that well anyways cos she was only sleeping 3 hours the last couple weeks and as long as i keep up the days i feel ok bout it,just feel like m doing it and being selfish but in the same token i used to be a real party pooper and not like ppl drinking etc esp dh and ive loosened up alot and am starting to learn to let go and enjoy myslef though i dont get drunk or anything and im also spending more time with my dad and step mum (my BF) so its been nice and it means im not so ****ty at dh for going out cos i do it to now though i still told him just cos ive loosened up with this doesnt mean i will ever loose up with the strippers kinda stuff thats still a big nono to me im just to jealous and letting him would cause to many problems...

hope everyones doing good...dh didnt get me anything so its lucky my family got good suff and he will get me something later