oh fi, big to Leila for her fall. i know how you feel. The other night i was cooking tea and bathing Alissa (i was still in my work uniform at 6pm .. i finished at 2) id just been so busy trying to do everything. I used to dress Alissa in her cot coz it was still set on the highest setting so it wasnt hard to lean over and dress her, id been nagging at jon all week to drop the cot down coz she keeps standing up and im terrified she would fall out. This night i put her nappy on so she wouldnt wee everywhere and left her there for a second whil ei raced up the other end of the house to check tea wasn burning or anything. In that small space of time Alissa had climbed up and stood up and fallen over and wedged her head in the corner of the bed i just heard this massive bang and bolted down there, jon was already there with a screaming Alissa and he just looed and me and said "WHY would you leave her there?" i trid to expalin and he just said "youve been at me all week to drop it coz its so dangerous but you leave her there while she's wide awake" i just started crying and telling him not to give her to me coz im a terrible parent and how could i be so careless, coz i was so soo upset Alissa was just looking at me crying, not from the fall but coz i was crying and yelling at him to not give her to me. i still get upset when i think of that night i seriously felt like the biggest failure
My girlfriend and i joke about the worrying for our babies, (hers is 4 days older that Alissa) it never ends, this is it. we will worry like this for ever LOL. But its ok, coz its all worth it
Alissa is crying so i must go, but have a good weekend everyone xx