oh where do I start.

my life is a massive pile of dung today. feel like curling up under a rock somewhere for the next 20 years.

firstly this girl on FB who has been really annoying me for quite some time finally took a stab at me personally for no real reason and started a discussion and has subsequently deleted me (saved me the trouble cos I was getting ready to remove her anyway). she is the sister of the girl from work who lost the baby and is nasty to me.

secondly I just feel emotionally exhausted and feel so alone. none of my friends would answer the phone to talk to me.

lastly it has all been about J today. after ignoring his calls because I knew it wouldn't go well, he messaged me this morning about having V today (i never said he could) and tried to guilt trip me because apparently its his dads birthday, and I should have contacted him, and now i've ruined his dads birthday blah blah blah.

I got on the phone, the first time he didn't listen to a word I wanted to say and actually had the nerve to HANG UP on me.

A short while later I missed another 2 calls from him ( i was genuinely busy) and received a text saying that this is stupid and we need to have an adult discussion about things (yet HE was the one who hung up on the phone).oh and also 'yours is not the only opinion that matters' (yet HE was the one who talked over me and didn't listen).

My opinion doesn't matter, because to him HIS is the only opinion that does. if I don't agree with him I am wrong. every time.

This is all because he wants V for 3 half days a WEEK. and I said no way. I think we'll stick with 2. and even that is really more than fair I think.

Apparently I am selfish because even if he has him 3 days I GET HIM FOR 4 days.
Sounds like immature, jealousy, and absolutely all about himself not Vinny.

He claims that he is considering vinny and I said bull ****. I told him I am considering vinny, and if I was selfish and only thinking about me I wouldn't go to the trouble to let him see vinny at all now would i.

I am sooooooooooooooooooo mad right now. we are just going around in circles.

I'm happy to do 2 days a week, and up it to 3 later on. but in the meantime if there is a family bday or anything he can let me know and we can arrange it for that day or if he wants he can have him on extra days when they suit. but definitely not a permanent 3 days