ahh totally hear ya cherished...the sleep deprivation is by far the worst part of the whole gig...BUT the upside is...it ENDS! that is why i am finding it much easier (i use 'easier' in a loose way...i too find lack of sleep horrendous) this time around 'cause i can look at my toddler and go: 'oh yeah, they do sleep!' LOL!
i remember not liking being at home alone with DD1 too. it was i reckon a confidence thing mixed with loneliness and tiredness...never a great combo IMO (in fact, even this time around i still like to 'plan' my days when i am home alone...at least one quick outing together, even if just to the neighbours or the local cafe for a takeaway decaf). things that i find make it easier are to sit in the sunshine while bubs slept in the pram, or to throw out a rug in the shade and lie together and BF and then pop them into bed. the fresh air really makes a huge difference to the sleep deprivation i reckon...that's why today, DH has laid a new lawn out the back need mah sunshine lol! (i was in tears for most of monday as i was so shagged and over it...and stuck in the house 'cause the backyard was a desolate sandy building-site).
we too dont have much of a day routine. i have been finding that she seems to either go straight to sleep in the mornings and wake around lunch OR stay awake all morning, have a feed and then cry cry cry until early afternoon (joyful...NOT lol). but lately she has been having a 'routine' of sorts at night in that she wants to be in her PJs at 5pm, have a feed, a bit of quiet play and rest in my arms, then a bigger feed at 6pm that lasts until just before 7pm then she goes to bed for the night. On a good night she'll go until 1-1.30 for a quick feed, but on a more challenging night she'll wake anywhere between 9 and 11 and then 2-3 hourly from then on. man those nights SUCK lol!
AFM: not much to report really! had a fairly quiet day at the ranch. a quick trip to bunnings to get washed sand for the new lawn, a real estate agent came through to value the place...$100k above what we bought it for last year (insane), and yeah just pottered around the place. Marta basically spent the day sleeping in the car or in the Close Carrier (OMG, how AWESOME is that carrier??!! a neighbour has borrowed it for me and i am in love). marta is trying to giggle. it is soo funny. she sounds like a dodgy used car salesman when she does it lol. ah well, the wee poppet will get there. she loves games like when i blow on her face (thinks that's the best) or when i blow raspberries on her neck...(totally cracks up)...and she is ticklish!! so much fun to watch her laugh through that!
hey, I just bought a Close Carrier online yesterday I am looking forward to being hands free so i can gt stuff done!
We don't have a day routine really either. But I've decided I've got to try to get him in one seeig as he will have to be going to daycare 3 days a week from January.
Cherished, I remember hating being at home alone with Charli. I sometimes still feel like that this time too. I really wish I had family close by to pop in and visit thoughout the week while DH is at work.
I too have the odd teary day. Yesterday was a bit of a shocker. Unsettled newborn and whingy toddler was sending me bonkers. . . Every now and then I feel like the PND monster might be returning. I really hope not
It's been a while.. MASSIVE weekend my goodness it totally ruined our routine, poor bub, she's been out of wack since Friday... We had our first visit from my neice who was born 1 day before Audrey.. She's HUGE.. lol... my poor bubba is tiny tiny, my niece is already in 000 clothes, and Aurdrey still swims in her 0000.....
MamaSpice: thank you for offering the pump to me.. Unfortuneately I am having some issues ATM I have plenty of milk, for feedin bub, so after her feed I get the pump out and use it, BUT I don't have enough supply for the nexy time she feeds, which is usually 4hrs later... So I don't know what I'm doing wrong, or whether I don't have enough milk.. I was going to try and express 1 bottle a day to start with, but Bub is just sooo unsettled with her next feed that I just can;t stand her crying... Any tips on how I can keep my supply up to exclusively breatfeed, but also be able to express......
Cassius2: I am very lucky working in Child Care, I see so many new mummies and daddies dropping their kids off and they are so upset that they are leaving their babies.. Ladies from a workers point of view, your bubbas are in great care, and they do settle I promise you all that, it may take a little bit but they do settle, the carers will cuddle them and comfort them, and usually we fall in love with 'our' kids and get sad when they leave for school... It's going to be hard for me to even leave her, even though I can see her all the time, but I have a better understanding now what the parents go through, as much as I know the girls will take care of Audrey, no one can do a better job then me or DP, we're her parents.. When you start to take bubba into care, will you be staying with her? Or leaving her? At our centre if a parent stays with their child and only stays for 1hr at a time, for them to get use to it, we don't charge them... I'm pretty sure we allow 3 visits, to a maz of 1hr each before we start to charge....
Cherished1: Oh what I would give to have a full nights sleep!! I was totally exhausted last night, bub wasn't crying or anything, just awake in her rocker, but I could't keep my eyes open I asked DP to come in and her get for me so I could get some sleep... I don't know how you ladies do it when bub wakes up every 2 - 3 hrs.. I'm exhausted with bub waking every 4 - 5hrs, I seriously hope of next bub sleeps as well as Audrey... I take my hat off to you!!! I don't know if I could cope with that...
AFM: Hoping that today we get our routine back... Bub hasn't been able to settle unless she has been my arms, as much as I love mummy time, I really don't want her to totally depend on me and not be able to go to anyone else.. Yesterday was a perfect example, my sister came over, and wanted a cuddle as they do, and normally Audrey is more than happy to have cuddles, but she wouldn't have a bar of it, screamed for alomost 15mins, before I said I think maybe she needs a feed, the second she was in my arms, she fell asleep, tried to put her down and she'd wake up crying... Tried that 4 times, then went bugger it I'll just hold you, she slept for 4hrs on me, great, but I got a really sore arm afterwards lol....
Routine is so far so good.... Woke up at 5.30am, had a feed, went back to sleep woke up at 7.30am, (unusally small sleep, but I can handle that) another feed, went to sleep at 8.30am and still asleep now, so finished crossed she won't wake up again until 12.30pm maybe...
Enjoy your babies ladie... I'm sure lots of us are starting to get smiles and giggles!!! They're so cute!
MamaS: you'll LOVE the CC! i love that it is totally handsfree...well i do lol! was able to help DH put down the grass yesterday!!
i hear ya on wanting family around. i wish for that too. we have friends round, but that is still a bit tiring as you need to 'entertain' iykwim. need to have mum around so i can vege out while she cuddles marta or entertains leila.
i also have had moments where i am convinced that i am getting PND again. oh it aint a nice feeling! i called my psychologist the other day as i want to keep a close eye on it and she believes that for me, it is associative anxiety. because last time was sooo bad there are triggers that remind me of that time and can instigate a good old panic attack (or rather, heightened anxiety). so have been working on reminding myself that and not placing too much stock on it when i have had a tough day (cause let's face it, you gunna have them with a new baby lol!). but overall i feel so different and so much better and in a different place to last time...i just that it stays that way IYKWIM. i know how much can be 'lost' when you have PND IYKWIM...
HPL: marta loves to be held all day too...but i find that if she does at least one sleep in her bed then she is more settled overall (i guess she sleeps deeper there??). i am so jealous of those sleeping hours that audrey does !!! here we only get 2-3 hours max during the day...
AFM: big couple of days here. laid down the grass in our backyard very excited! it's still alive today LOL! been staring at it for most of the day.
also had our last formal appt with our midwife today i feel really sad about it. sharing such a special journey together and now that it's over it feels strange to say goodbye. at least we will be staying in some sort of contact as she has asked me to write some articles for the maternity coalition on Post Traumatic Stress Disorders following birth trauma. should be good i reckon! we also have the annual picnic with the group coming up in mid november and also DH and I have been asked to share our birth experience at one of the information nights. look forward to that too!
poor marta is a bit unsettled today. too much partying lol! hopefully she will be settled tonight...
ha ha! with newborn babies no one is ever late...well that's what i keep telling myself when it's 3pm and i am still in my pjs lol!
I'm thinking that Marta is going through a 6 week growth spurt (read: wonder week). last night she fed 5 times this after settling into a very cruisy pattern of 2/maybe 3 feeds at a stretch. oh dear my poor .y. are a wee bit worn out this morning lol. she wasnt unsettled or anything and popped straight back to sleep after each feed, so i guess she just has lots of growing to do...let's hope it's just going to be the usual 3 day affair (from what i vaguely remember from DD1...).
oh and Marta is getting too long for her 000 bonds wondersuits this is so weird for me as DD1 was still in 00000s at this stage and only graduated into 000s at 5-6 months of age lol.
we are also off to our BF clinic tomorrow. should be nice! my friend told me that she loved it as it was a day of being fed, lounging around on comfy recliners and hanging out with other mums and their young bubs...sounds alright to me...
I agree with Cassius2 - you're never late with a bubba!! I too find myself in my pj's but not at 3pm - it's usually at the dinner table when DP goes - Honey, was bub good today? Did you get time for a shower.. I reply with - no, just didn't get out of these pj's - LMAO
I'm so so excited Audrey slept from 8pm - 4.30am - quick feed and change then back to sleep!!! and she's still alseep NOW!!!! YAY - well sort of yay, when i woke up my poor boobies where very hard and very full, when I took my breastpad off to feed bub - SQUIRTS EVERYWHERE - in her eyes, over the bed spread, the pillow - everywhere, I didn't know whether to cry or laugh - cry coz I had only just changed the sheets and bed spread yesterday - laugh coz Bub's face was priceless, she didn't know what to think.....
Cassius2: OUCH on the boobies!! I'm waiting for Audrey to go through that now... Just as I get use to good sleeps, she'll start waking up every 3hrs for a feed - lol - oh well, as you said, hopefully lasts only 3 or so days...
Guess I should go do something productive while Bub's is sleeping, washing, dishers, or just sit on the couch.... bugger, washing - those sheets are going to stink... have a great day ladies!
need mah sunshine lol! (i was in tears for most of monday as i was so shagged and over it...and stuck in the house 'cause the backyard was a desolate sandy building-site).
(insane), and yeah just pottered around the place. Marta basically spent the day sleeping in the car or in the Close Carrier (OMG, how AWESOME is that carrier??!! a neighbour has borrowed it for me and i am in love). marta is trying to giggle. it is soo funny. she sounds like a dodgy used car salesman when she does it lol. ah well, the wee poppet will get there. she loves games like when i blow on her face (thinks that's the best) or when i blow raspberries on her neck...(totally cracks up)...and she is ticklish!! so much fun to watch her laugh through that!
I am looking forward to being hands free so i can gt stuff done!
that it stays that way IYKWIM. i know how much can be 'lost' when you have PND IYKWIM...
very excited! it's still alive today LOL! been staring at it for most of the day. 
i feel really sad about it. sharing such a special journey together and now that it's over it feels strange to say goodbye. at least we will be staying in some sort of contact as she has asked me to write some articles for the maternity coalition on Post Traumatic Stress Disorders following birth trauma. should be good i reckon! we also have the annual picnic with the group coming up in mid november and also DH and I have been asked to share our birth experience at one of the information nights. look forward to that too! 
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this after settling into a very cruisy pattern of 2/maybe 3 feeds at a stretch. oh dear my poor .y. are a wee bit worn out this morning lol. she wasnt unsettled or anything and popped straight back to sleep after each feed, so i guess she just has lots of growing to do...let's hope it's just going to be the usual 3 day affair (from what i vaguely remember from DD1...).
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