Babies Born~September 2006 #111

**Rach75** · September 22nd, 2009, 05:28 PM

Shar from previous thread, no probs over chat hope I was some help

thanks for the thoughts for tomorrow

so as most of you know tomorrow is my sweet babies, 6th angel bday I am feeling incredibly guilty over how depressed I am feeling I look at jack and my

ever growing huge belly and think what right do I have to be disappointed in what life has given me, but then I just want to

cause I want my Jack to know his big sister I want boo to know its big sister I want her here with me not just in my heart and memory....

**shellbell3** · September 22nd, 2009, 08:21 PM

rach

Don't feel guilty, of course its natural to feel how you do. Yes you have a beautiful son and another baby on the way but you lost your first born and that will always be with you. Take care over this hard time.

**lilima** · September 22nd, 2009, 08:28 PM

Rach - tomorrow wil lbe hard on you. Wat you have written sounds very normal. It must be very difficult. Just take some time to reflect, and remember that although she is not here now, she was a little person that was too good for earth.

In a way I am sort of relieved that J failed the hearing test, as it proves that all I have been saying was correct. I jsut needed someone to believe me that there was something wrong.

Today 1 year ago my cousin lost her little boy. He wasn't born for another 24 hours, but he died in her womb. I am terribly sad for her, and hope that this week is not too hard for her.

**shellbell3** · September 22nd, 2009, 08:30 PM

Meg, I can't believe a year has gone by already. How is she doing?

**lilima** · September 22nd, 2009, 09:51 PM

Not too good really. She is on anti d's and is still terribly upset. I think as people begin to forget, it gets harder. Hopefully she will start to feel better now that the first anniversary is over. All the firsts are done. I just wish she would be able to have anotehr baby, but it hasn't happened for them so far. I suppose her body will know when the time is right, and it isn't right at the moment.