No worries Trish - doesn't gross me out! (maybe it should, but your perspective on gross changes a little I think, after having kids! ) Anyways, I've tried a couple of times to put things back where they belong, and it feels better for a minute, and then slips back out again. I talked to my midwife though this afternoon, and she recommended a different cream (proctofoam?) so we'll see how that goes. She said it's supposed to be a much better product. Here's hoping!