That sounds really isolating Kelly. I recognise those feelings as those I felt when my little man was the same age.... and I wanted to gently suggest that it sounds like you might be experiencing PND.

I keep going to add more and then deleting it. I don't want to tell you what's happening for you. I don't want to throw platitudes at you. Really, I just want to send you my support and suggest that you have a chat with your GP, PANDA or even just a really supportive friend about how you're feeling.

xoxo