i'm not really religious either,i was raised a catholic but i tend to take a bit of something from many religions..anyway...I totally get what your saying...these thoughts have been going through my head ever since my son was born and the same year my mum was diagnosed with cancer...i never used to think much about it before then..too into my own little world i guess ....but having my son and seeing him grow and change sooo quickly made me realise how fast life is going now and having never had to deal with a serious family health issue before it has made me constantly think of "what if something happens to me" and all those types of horrid thoughts.....night time is the worst when i'm trying to get to sleep..it's awful...and then i wake up the next day and think "why do you keep thinking about this" but i know i'll do it again...and then today with the news of Jane Mcgrath's passing...the thought of her kids without their mother at such a young age just does my head in.... becoming a parent has definitely made a more emotional person....i just wish time would slow down a bit, but i definitely appreciate every minute i get to spend with my family...now more than ever... you are definitely not alone on this topic...: