Oh Emma I don't think you have a problem, I think it's so, so normal. When people die, even ones we don't know it's often a prompt for us to start thinking about our own lives, and to look at some of the deeper philosophical questions that are too easy to brush off when we're busy or so wrapped up in the "moment".

With the deaths of the little twins in Qld this week and now Jane McGrath as well I've been doing an awful lot of thinking in the same vein as you have. Read any of the threads about either of the above and you'll see that many of us here are doing the same thing, on some level

It's a positive thing. If we don't stop and think about death we can never really appreciate life, or the people we love.