I had an interesting/morbid thought rocess this morning.

You see a few things are happening around me at the moment which has made me wonder about life and death and its cycle, and families etc.

I lost both my Nana and Grandpa on my dads side, then following Nan, We lost Nikita. Granted there was a little "unknown" angel inbetween but as far as meeting people in your family they were my three int he last 7-8 years.

Now some would call this a coincidence but I personally do not beielev in coincidences and am taking this as a "sign"

I have been wondering about and litereally praying for AF to come so we can start TTC. I am on day 3? maybe 4 without looking at the calander ... and around the same time my Poppy has gone from a bad to worse situation and we are litereally waiting for him to die.

So something my MIL said to me last year jus before DD was born "someone always dies before another life is given" (not her exact words but the general feel). It seemed fairly morbid at the time but NOW I am beginning to wonder about this.

We are not ready right this very second to TTC but it won't be too far either.

My thought was, Maybe there are only so many people "allowed" into a family? like the old saying goes as one door closes another will open ....

Does this make any sense? Am I being too morbid for some?

I do believe somewhat in reincarnation so hence my writing this I guess.

I hope I have not offended anyone, it was just a thought that has been bugging me all day.

Nae x x