15 weeks and buns gone :(

[Razzberry]

What you have been through is just horrific and I can't even begin to imagine your pain. Lots of hugs.xox

[Bumperstump Cummerbund]

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry

I second Misty - when you feel strong enough, maybe you should write and complain to the hospital, their standard of 'care' was disgusting

[Willow]

Oh CM, I am devastated to read this news...my heart is breaking for you

You know what? Bugger work. You need to really take care of yourself right now babe. Can I gently suggest both you and DP get some counselling if you feel you need it. You have not only lost your son, but the way you lost him is extremely traumatic

You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

[buliej]

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you find a way to take some time off - you need to take care of yourself physically and emotionally.

[visitor1]

CM im sorry to hear of this sad news. Fly free Dylan and forever look over your loving family

babe

[LadyRaven]

Thanks all, according to a girl at work my boss actually has a heart and was very freaked out. I told him I wasn't coming into work and he said that I have no leave so I told him I was laying in a pool of blood with my dead baby on the floor waiting for DP to come home to take me to the hospital. Then he rung later to see how I was (DP needs someone to blame so he is blaming my boss for giving me the flu and nothing I can say will change his mind right now) and DP said well I just had to bury my son in the yard, CM is in hospital fighting for her effing life and may die/need a hysterectomy and theres nothing DP could do, kinda shut the boss up pretty quick so Im hoping he won't be an absolute evil sod to me when I do show up. We are in the middle of rush and understaffed because he 'forgot' to ring staff then no one was available... not my problem!

My tumbley hurts today but at least I no longer resemble part-hulk with my ballooned up arm (they filled my arm instead of my vein with saline) so that's always a good thing...

I stupidly asked my DP to take a picture of Dylan before burying him, I don't know why I just didn't want to forget him I guess... then I stupidly looked at the pic today... so now I'm not so great... self-induced idiocity...

[Willow]

Hun, it's not idiocity, it's grief

Maybe not today, but in the future you will cherish that photo of your son.