The pain of m/c is the worst pain i have ever felt. I could not have ever imagined that i would deal with it so 'badly'. To this day it suprises me the depth i sunk. I feel sick remembering it now.......
But somehow at some point, im not sure when but it got easier and easier.
I have had two beautiful children since, so i am lucky enough to have three kids ages 5, 2, 10months. But still i have feelings of, 'id love a 4th, but do i risk another m/c"? I guess that i want you to know that whilst its the worst place i have ever been, it is worth the risk, because the benefits (kids) make it worth the fight!
I am intensively private about my m/c, but share my story when i feel it might help someone, as i had some amazing friends that were there for me when i needed it!
Have strength, seek support, forgive yourself and do try again.
Ill be sending you all my support and friendship your way!
I am so sorry for your loss hun. Having had a loss myself, I can tell you that yes, it gets easier, the grieving takes place and then it eases, life goes on and normality returns but not completely, you start to hear the birds sing again, you notice the sunshine, you hear your own laughter. But it took me months to get there, and I am still grieving to some extent. I am however now ready to try again and even though I will be very anxious and scared, I am going to go there again as I would love to have an earth baby.
So stay strong, stay focused and get some help if you need it with councelling or support from partner/family/friends/support groups. It really helps.
All the best for you and I hope you don't have to wait long for your beautiful earth baby.
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