Hi everyone,
I would like to share my story in attempt to gain support and hope... my husband an i have just experienced the loss of our son Jed... born at 34weeks. This was my second pregnancy. The first was ectopic which i lost a tube at 5w and was faced with transfusions etc. Three weeks ago, i was faced with the loss of my beautiful boy and harsh reality that i could have lost my life again...only this time was alot more serious... it's very scary.
We are still in disbelief and are constantly saying Why?...and how could this happen to anyone?
Jed was concieved through AI so the lead up to his conception was a long road...a road we'd never imagined we would travel but we chose in order to track ovulation (as it is now only possible to conceive from the R side); The day we received the phone call to tell of the positive test, was the most exciting day!!! We were positive...and started making plans for the future. My pregnancy with Jed was smooth sailing...i felt good...BP was normal...no unusual signs that anything would occur until the day he decided to come early. I had a massive bleed caused from a placental abruption which lead to emergency ceasar...the most frightening day of our life... we welcomed our little man into our world only to have him taken from us the next day...it was love at first sight...it was kind of bitter sweet as we feel enriched for having a beautiful son but are heart broken at his loss and just miss him dearly. Naturally, i move in and out of blaming myself even though i have been reassured that there was nothing i could have done differently.
for now we take one day at a time. After reading some of the posts i don't feel so isolated... everyone has their own story.
When we work through our emotions, we hope to have a brother or sister for Jed but i am worried will it be possible and if it is am nervous already about next prgnancy and pregnancy so soon after caesar...
does anyone have any thoughts or comments or similar stories?
thank you for giving me a voice on this forum