thank you so much for your kinds words and

I know its silly to feel guilty for not feeling sadder, just something I will have to process..am doing ok physically I thought I would be in a lot more pain, I haven't been thru one naturally before so had no idea what to expect, the loss has pretty much ceased so if thats normal or not

I see my RE on thursday to see where we go from here, being 33 and having taken 5 years and 5th pg to get Jack we will get back on the TTC wagon ASAP

thanks again