i dont really know who to word this but i will try my hardest to make sense...
since lossing bubby Hydie if i am alone all i do is cry because all i think about is wat if,, as in wat if i had done this or that and think that it is my fault... i have even cried my self to sleep at nite and my Darling partner has caught me crying i tell him wats wrong and even though he re-ashores me that it wasnt my fault and things like this just happpen,
i still cant but think that it was my fault. now i want to do something in memory i did something for the twins which was a memorial box with just a few baby thing in them. wen i put the idea towards my partner he didnt like it and i would really love some ideas it would be really great.... but even still how do i no that something like that will help i just cant helped but be depressed. i act as if everything is fine wen i go out and then i get home and i just want to be quite go to my room listen to sad songs and think.. i miss Hydie so much, and on top of that i really miss my twins Tyson and kate....
please i just want to be happy again and i think my boyfriend wants me to be happy cause he just doesnt no wat to do anymore

me 17 partner 18
tyson and kate 8 w 4 d 15th of march 2006
hydie 18th of sep 5 w 5 d 2007