Oh Kitt3n..I'm so sorry you have to feel like this.. big :hugs:

And YES what you are feeling is so normal. Those feelings of fear and negativity, and the overwhelming longing to be able to say 'I'm pregnant' can feel suffocating

Things will get easier. And these tough times will make all the happy moments that are yet to come be just so much more precious and truly amazing that they will blow you away.

Hang in there xx