Thanks everyone, what an emotional roll-a-coaster of a day. Spotting on & off, alternating between brown gunk & purple/dark red mucus but only when I wipe. Cramps aren't too bad, more if a dull ache & just a general yuck feeling. Have spent many minutes on the phone with DP, sometimes not talking but just to have him there.

My biggest two allies today have been my younger brothers - both are married with kids of their own, one has a baby coming in sept & one went through a m/c with my sil 2 years ago. They are the ones who have held me, and sat with me. I'm staying with my dad & step mum for the weekend & although I resent not being in my own house at least I am in the "family" home. Have had a nana nap, hate that "was it a dream?" feeling but needed the rest.

Am so glad I found BB - it's great having such support 24/7. Thank you xxx