Hi all, first time on anything like this. Don't really know what else to do.
I found out I was expecting my second baby on Monday. On Thursday I woke up to bad pains in the left of my abdomen, had awful diarrhoea and threw up. I immediately thought something wasn't right, my partner had taken our son out, and after a quick look on the web I thought it sounded like an ectopic pregnancy so called 999. I spent a few hours in a and e p, got checked out, but the doc said it seemed like food poisoning and I had a very slight water infection that did not require treatment. We had been for a meal the previous night so although in the back of my mind still I was a little worried, the pain had gone and I went home. Later that evening I started to bleed, no pain and I had this slightly with my first son so I thought I'd give it till morning and go to my GP.
So Friday morning came around and I went to the surgery, they sent me to the early pregnancy assessment unit to get checked, I had an internal and got told it was ectopic. It all happened so fast, strap on wrist, told I was staying in, that I needed an op, I was all alone and had to call my partner out of work. What really hit me was minutes later when the doc came in and started explaining that they would be totally removing my left tube with our baby. I'm 26 years old and just felt totally devastated. I couldn't tell my partner this over the phone and waited till he arrived.
I had keyhole surgery with three small incisions a few hours later and the doc told me that my right remaining tube looked ok yesterday morning, and I was sent home in the early afternoon. Since then I spent the night in bed after a total breakdown when I got home, and now sit here in bed alone again with what feels like no one in the world and I just don't know what to do. I live a little way away from my family, and my partners family are very different to mine (as in not one of thems even been in touch to say sorry for our loss or anything like that that I would consider normal). My partner and I have had a few difficulties in recent months, he has had a difficult past and it is clear to me that he suffers with depression yet he will not go to get help. He said last night he has always felt dead emotionally, what do you say to that. I don't know what to do. I just want to totally break down, more than anything I just want to be held but its like there's nothing from him. I don't know where to turn so I thought I'd try crying out for some support on here. Thanks for listening and taking the time to read this.