Thank you for having this arena in which I feel I can write truth - my truth. I miscarried last week and had my D&C on the same day (last Tuesday)

I am 37, mother of a fabulous 16 year old boy, and was SO thrilled to find myself pregnant again. My husband, son and I were so eagerly anticipating this new little one.

I am diabetic and thus "high-risk", so I took every measure to ensure a safe and healthy pregnancy.

When I started spotting on 7/4, I got very worried - went to the ER, and they performed an ultrasound and pronounced a very strong, healthy heartbeat - so I relaxed. I found out about my loss upon a routine doc appt/ultrasound "I'm so sorry, I don't find a heartbeat".

My world just collapsed there - I could not believe it - couldn't make myself believe it - I had SEEN the heart beat just one week prior.

I've never felt such depths of pain and anguish - and "people"s' responses are just not helpful - at all. It is so hard to bounce back and get back to work where grief is quite frankly inconvenient and I just feel so lost.

Thank you for letting me speak (I"m sure I will again - ) and I feel better knowing I am not alone.