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  1. #1
    Hease105 Guest

    Unhappy Feel so lost and adrift

    Thank you for having this arena in which I feel I can write truth - my truth. I miscarried last week and had my D&C on the same day (last Tuesday)

    I am 37, mother of a fabulous 16 year old boy, and was SO thrilled to find myself pregnant again. My husband, son and I were so eagerly anticipating this new little one.

    I am diabetic and thus "high-risk", so I took every measure to ensure a safe and healthy pregnancy.

    When I started spotting on 7/4, I got very worried - went to the ER, and they performed an ultrasound and pronounced a very strong, healthy heartbeat - so I relaxed. I found out about my loss upon a routine doc appt/ultrasound "I'm so sorry, I don't find a heartbeat".

    My world just collapsed there - I could not believe it - couldn't make myself believe it - I had SEEN the heart beat just one week prior.

    I've never felt such depths of pain and anguish - and "people"s' responses are just not helpful - at all. It is so hard to bounce back and get back to work where grief is quite frankly inconvenient and I just feel so lost.

    Thank you for letting me speak (I"m sure I will again - ) and I feel better knowing I am not alone.

  2. #2
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    Feb 2005
    Boyne Island
    6,327

    Welcome.. Sorry for your loss..

  3. #3
    Registered User

    Jan 2008
    Newcastle,uk
    156

    Hease105-really sorry for your loss. Similar thing happened to me with my second m/c
    had spotting went for u/s seen a healthy hb for 3 weeks then on fourth week nothing.
    Know how devastating it is.
    I am so pleased that you have found this place as it has really helped me, hope you find it helps you too.
    Take care

  4. #4
    Registered User

    Apr 2008
    Hunter Valley
    301

    Hease105,
    My thoughts are with you at this painful time, you will find many supportive friends on here who will help you to feel less isolated whilst you go through the grieving process. I know that when I needed them they made each day a little easier to bear. Give yourself time to go through all of the emotions that your body throws at you. And also know that you are not alone, writing about it on here helps immensely.
    Thinking of you,
    ClareBear.

  5. #5
    Registered User

    Dec 2007
    Sunny Qld
    14,682

    I'm terribly sorry for your loss.
    Welcome to Belly belly and please post as much as you need to.
    Take care of yourself.

  6. #6
    Registered User

    Nov 2004
    Chasing Daylight...
    2,034

    Heather I'm so sorry for your loss. You're right, grief is never easy or convenient. I hope you'll find comfort, support and journey-mates here amongst the BellyBelly community

  7. #7
    Registered User

    Jan 2007
    rothwell,QLD
    1,135

    I am sorry for your loss

  8. #8
    Registered User

    Dec 2007
    Geelong
    3,438

    Hi,
    So sorry to hear of your loss. This is just devastating for you at the moment, let yourself grieve.
    Welcome to BB you will find lots of comfort here.
    Your angel baby will be in your heart forever.

    Regards,
    Dianne