Goodbye miracle baby Hope

**Possums** · February 6th, 2009, 02:43 PM

Hi everyone. At Christmas DH and I were shocked and delighted to discover we had conceived naturally while waiting for our next IVF cycle. I have only one tube left after the ectopic last year and it's in "bad shape" so we'dbeen told chances of natural conception were very slim. And yet, we had a little Christmas miracle which we nicknamed Hope.

Sadly this week at our 10 wk scan, we saw that Hope's heart which had been so strong at 8 weeks, had stopped. Our miracle had flown from us. It was a shattering moment for DH and I as we stared at the screen.

Our third loss in the space of 12 months has left us devastated, empty and also angry. I had a curette today and am physically exhausted.

And I am also scared I might never get to hold my forever baby. We wonder why this has happened again and I worry something is wrong with me. I am so angry I see people pregnant around me who smoke and mistreat their bodies while I try to do all the right things.

I hope that in time the well of inner strength will come to the surface again to pull DH and I through.

We loved you sweet baby Hope, and will always remember you sweetie. Fly safely little soul.

**cheekyfrog** · February 6th, 2009, 02:49 PM

I am so very sorry for the loss of your baby, Possums. I hope you are surrounded by all the love and comfort you need right now. Lots of hugs to soothe your heart.

**Maruschke** · February 6th, 2009, 02:50 PM

It's not fair Emma

. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

**Muppity** · February 6th, 2009, 02:51 PM

Oh Possums, I am so sorry to read of the loss of your precious angel Hope. Wishing that I had something wonderful and profound to say but all I can do is send hugs

**Kitt3n** · February 6th, 2009, 02:52 PM

oh, hun, nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

i am so very sorry

**MsPink** · February 6th, 2009, 02:53 PM

Emma - I am so sad for you and your DH. Thinking of you both..

**feeb** · February 6th, 2009, 02:53 PM

so sorry for your loss.

thinking of you at this hard time

huge hugs

xoxo

**joshnchloesmummy** · February 6th, 2009, 02:58 PM

I'm so very sorry for your devastating loss, i really hope you and your DH are able to heal. Please don't lose hope that you will hold your much wanted bubs in your arms. Big hugs to you and DH

**~Trish~** · February 6th, 2009, 02:58 PM

Oh no Possums

. I am so very sorry to hear of your loss

.

My thoughts and prayers are with you

.

**missya** · February 6th, 2009, 03:16 PM

My thoughts and tears are with you, I'm so very sorry you have to go through this again it breaks my heart.

Take care of yourself
Missy

**mummy2chloe** · February 6th, 2009, 03:27 PM

oh sweetheart

i am so sorry, i wish i could take the pain your feeling away

hold on tight to dh and the love you both have for each other will get you through this

please take care hun

and i am truely sorry that this has happend

rest in peace little hope, your mummy and daddy will never forget you and there going to love you forever xxx

**rufalina** · February 6th, 2009, 04:03 PM

So so so sorry for the loss of your precious baby hope. Thinking of you.

**westy** · February 6th, 2009, 04:09 PM

Emma, i am so sorry to hear of the loss of your precious little baby 'Hope'

Thinking of you and hoping that one day soon you will be holding your much wanted baby safely in your arms.

***Nikki*** · February 6th, 2009, 04:10 PM

Oh possum - I'm so very sorry

Thinking of you and DH

xox

**Possums** · February 6th, 2009, 04:25 PM

Thank you all for the warm support. This site and lovely ladies like you do help me get through these times

**Aries** · February 6th, 2009, 04:33 PM

Possums I am devastated for you & your hubby at this time. Please stay strong & look after yourself. You are such a strong, positive woman & I wish you every happiness in the future xo