BeiBei, I am so sorry for your loss and the pain that you're going through. I hope that you are able to surround yourself with the love and hugs that you need right now. Rest quietly and know that we're all thinking of you. Hugs and more hugs. In the days after my last loss, the hugs and kind words from the BB family meant so much to me, particularly as I was mostly alone. Whenever you need a hug, just say so. I'm glad you are able to take the week off from work.