Just want to vent a bit (thank God I have a place to do this, feel grateful already)...in summary, Mood change -- from Mellow to Crappy...
I thought I was ok but lately don't know where all the anger and crappiness comes from (feel they are coming everywhere)...all the things annoys me...I have never broken so many glasses in my life (accidentally) and seems everything is against me, nothing goes to plan...water temperature even running hot and cold when I take a shower, bathroom fan is broken, tap is leaking, our investment property is 'negative gearing' a lot more than we thought...I don't know its because the moon is not in the right place or I am becoming more fragile, but I get frustrated everywhere I look...
I thought I have passed the worst part after the m/c, am I trying too hard? Are those feelings just starting to surface? I really have no idea...I just don't want to be a bad person to be around /with, for my poor DH's sake and other people who seems nicer than me ATM...
My holiday is only a week away and I hope with my attitude ATM, they will be able to sell me an airticket to somewhere...
Oh BeiBei...I now exactly what you mean. I'm still having really sucky days where everything seems to go bad. I think you just have to go with it...take it for what it is...a bad day...and make the most of it to vent all your anger and saddness...no point wasting it right !@?! It will get better...if these blasties hadn't thawed I would have ended up being admitted to the psych ward for sure...it doesn't take much to push you over the edge when you have a broken heart. Hang in there hun...remember...there's safety in numbers and we're all here with you xxx
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