Oh BeiBei...I now exactly what you mean. I'm still having really sucky days where everything seems to go bad. I think you just have to go with it...take it for what it is...a bad day...and make the most of it to vent all your anger and saddness...no point wasting it right !@?! It will get better...if these blasties hadn't thawed I would have ended up being admitted to the psych ward for sure...it doesn't take much to push you over the edge when you have a broken heart. Hang in there hun...remember...there's safety in numbers and we're all here with you xxx