Grieving all over again

[diannescruffy]

I lost my baby boy in April 06, he was born sleeping. I grieved and things were getting better, so I thought, I was feeling strong again and happy. I gave birth to a baby girl in October 07 and our family was so happy and I felt complete again. Lately I've been finding myself thinking about my loss (not that this is a bad thing) but I feel sad all over again. I've been having awful dreams that bad things happen to my baby and my older kids. I have a memory box with photos and momentos of my baby boy. I have only been able to look in the box once. I don't know why I just can't look through it because I would dearly love to go through it and look at his photos but it just hurts too much.

[maddysmummy]

im sending you big im so sorry for you loss!!


your little girl is so beautiful and has a head for hair!!

have you thought of having a special plant or star named after him so that you 2 can have some special time together??

i wish you all the best..

[Lissie]

I am so sorry for your loss. I think it is very normal for you to get sad from time to time - lets face it this was another one of your children - you will never forget or want to - you will find when its time to look in the box again - maybe you could discuss this with your DH and sit down and look at the box together - you may find strength in his arms. Your little bub is beautiful and boy alot of hair! Congrats on you new addition to the family. My thoughts and prayers are with you - have you thought about talking to a counsellor perhaps?

[Auntie M]

i am so sorry for your loss. this grieving journey is a bumpy one, and has many unexpected twists and turns. be good to yourself and allow your grieve for your son whenever and however you need to. you will always be his mom and will always miss him. i like the suggestion to go through the box with your dh or some other close friend. lots of hugs. m

[Katiegirl]

Dianne - I am so very loss for the loss of your baby boy. I think what you are going through is very natural. Grief can come upon you at different times, and often when you least expect it. My sister lost her boy Gabriel at 17 weeks and went on to have a baby girl afterwards. She told me that often during that pregnancy, she would get very upset about Gabriel, as the pregnancy and subsequent birth reminded her of all that she would not share with him. Whilst you will find immense joy in your baby girl, it is only natural for there to be reminders. I would also suggest you let your DH or someone else who is understanding know what you are feeling. It might help you to talk openly about your grief.

Take care

[tempus moriendi]

I'm so sorry for your loss. It was an awful thing to suffer through and I'll keep you in my prayers.
Feeling an extra dose of fear over and above normal mom anxiety is an unfortunate legacy of obstetric loss, and very, very normal. However, if the fear becomes so debilitating that you can't function, then you need to speak to a professional.
We're all here for you.