here I am again

[SallyJ]

Oh Meredith, it just isn't fair.

[Michelle71]

Here if you need anything

[Hammi]

I'm so sorry Meredith. Please see the person Kelly suggested or someone who will help you and care for you. Your heartbreak is too much for one person to bear.

[MsPink]

Meredith my lovely girl...

I am so so sorry for you. I know how broken hearted you are and I wish there was something I could say or do to help you right now.

Know that I am thinking of you...and if you need to talk ANY time with someone who 'gets' it, let me know...I am there for you.

Take care sweetie..

[Lissie]

Meredith,

I am so so sorry hun - i too thought all would be okay after last weeks scan - i started to believe in miracles - nature can be so cruel i know - i truly understand your pain and i know how lost you are - please know i am thinking of you and sending you the biggest ever - i just wish i could do something to help. I am so very sad for you

[tiggerlinda]

Oh sweetie I am worried and concerd for you please take Kelly's advice

This is unfair and not nice wish I could be there for you

[MeredithD]

Thankyou lovely ladies. I am in tears now just reading your kind words. For those wishing me luck still for tomorrow's scan, I'm afraid there really is no hope. Just have to go through the motions of scan (torture !) to be 100% that sole surviving twin truly has passed. I don't want to go and see yet another dead baby but couldn't have D&C without being sure. These beautiful babies will bring me to a total of 6 lost angels. Far to many to have on my conscience and running out of room on my necklace for more charms. I need this pain to stop. I don't want to grieve anymore. I haven't got the energy. I want to just try again and be pg with something my body doesn't fail to keep safe.
Just ranting now, sorry but just so sad,angry,frustrated etc etc .