Thankyou lovely ladies. I am in tears now just reading your kind words. For those wishing me luck still for tomorrow's scan, I'm afraid there really is no hope. Just have to go through the motions of scan (torture !) to be 100% that sole surviving twin truly has passed. I don't want to go and see yet another dead baby but couldn't have D&C without being sure. These beautiful babies will bring me to a total of 6 lost angels. Far to many to have on my conscience and running out of room on my necklace for more charms. I need this pain to stop. I don't want to grieve anymore. I haven't got the energy. I want to just try again and be pg with something my body doesn't fail to keep safe.
Just ranting now, sorry but just so sad,angry,frustrated etc etc .