Dory and everyone )))

Thankyou ))) i know my partner cares ) and is sad. It was a month yesterday since my little one was gone, me and my partner lit a candle and i said a prayer then we both blew the candle out i was happy he done just that i expected nothing more nor less so i was greatful for that.

I didnt go to her grave yesterday i figured i would go today or tomorrow, and not feel guilty for not going yesterday. I seem to be one of these people who like to kick themselves HARDER... realise i have to not to that and be strong.

My partner has been saying he wants another one, wehave gone from him being not wanting a child at the start to him now wanting another one, dearly, i think the pain of not having a child there is now hard for us both.. i just talk about it he doesnt. I have not yet had my 6 week check up, that is on the 28th of jan, i gave birth on the 16th of dec. We have already had intercourse( sorry idont know the abbreviations that are on here). My bleeding has stopped but period hasnt returned.... midwife said to me to try have sex when ever we were both ready, not needing to wait if we didnt want to. does anyone have any suggestioons?? or answers?? or where i can find...

i know its painfull whats happened and my gosh i wish it wasnt this way, i can still feel the softness of her little hands and feet. But i am being strong and remembering i ahve myself, my partner my family and friends. ))