lauri--I know exactly what you mean about your mind not going quiet. It's like a slideshow that just continues to play in your mind! I'm so glad to hear that you've already made an appt. with a new dr. I've also heard that folic acid helps. I started taking 1 baby aspirin a day, though I'm not really sure how it helps! It still seems surreal to me that I actually had the m/c, b'cuz everything seemed to be fine--even up to a week after the m/c, my body still felt pg. (symptom-wise)! That, I think, was the toughest part for me--the fact that even though I knew the baby was gone, it was like my body didn't know, and still responded as though everything was going fine.
I know how hard this can be, so please keep in touch--it truly helps talking to others who know exactly what you're going through! Good luck with your new dr., and I hope all your dreams come true!
Jen,
I still wake up in the morning and think I am pregnant, then it hits me. I had just told everyone and purchased nursing bras(which came in the mail a few days after the D&E)and a beautiful Laura Ashley quilt because I was positive it was a girl. I read your original post and went through most of the same emotions. I have a daughter and then 2 sons. I love my sons but now that my daughter is starting her own life(18 yrs old, college etc.) I really wanted to experience a girl with my 2nd husband. I am conflicted with having 3 healthy kids and some women can't have any. Am I asking for too much? Is my body too old or too unhealthy to put these little fetuses through this? It is so hard to see little babies on TV or anywhere right now. I am sure everyone on this site has experienced this. I still have fullness in my stomach and it is still tender and swollen. I just want it to get back to "normal"(did I ever have normal?) and try again. Have you experienced any bruising with taking the 1 baby aspirin a day? I tried this for health reasons(just read it in a magazine) a year or two ago and found I was bruising for no reason in places I didn't remember bumping. I have 2 pages of questions for these drs. I hope they can answer most of them with more than an I don't know. Thanks so much for posting. I will keep in touch.
Lauri
Lauri--IKWYM about feeling like you're asking too much, and feeling almost guilty b'cuz there are people out there that don't even have 1 child! Part of me feels like I should be happy and satisfied with the children that I do have--but I've always wanted a girl of my own. When I met my step daughters they were 3 & 6, so I've never been able to experience having my own newborn girl! Now, all I want is a healthy baby--boy or girl!
I personally haven't experienced any bruising with the baby aspirin, but I've only been taking it for about 4 days, so I'm not really sure what to expect. Have you had any blood tests done to make sure everything's getting back to "normal"? I was supposed to go in on Thurs. to make sure my hcg levels have dropped, but forgot all about it. Guess I'll go in on Mon. for that. Monday begins my fertile days, and Wed. supposed to be O--started ttc last night. Because female sperm live longer than males, (I think I read that females can live 3-5 days) I'm hoping that last night was the night for my girl! DF will be very happy for the next week or so, b'cuz I'm going to try my hardest to make this my month! DF feels we should try everyday except for the days AF's in town--lol what a typical male, huh? Good luck with your appt! Thanks again just for listening!
Jen,
I feel exactly that way too! Just a healthy child, no matter the sex.(although I completely understand anyone wanting to have whatever sex child they don't have!!)(plus the adorable girl clothes and toys. Sorry, after Tonka trucks and jeans and little work boots, I dream in pink!) I have not had any bloodwork yet. I go back on April 15th(same day as my amnio had been scheduled) and want to be swabbed for everything I didn't have checked because I was sure I didn't have anything wrong. My amniotic sac broke before any bleeding, which makes me think infection.? I don't know, but I will be pushing for clotting panels, thyroid screening, antiphospholipid screening and whether my RH shot worked from the last pregnancy(according to the regular pregnancy bloodwork, everything was fine, but for all the blood taken(4 or 5 tubes) no hormones were checked and everything that was checked was such basic stuff.)I will try the aspirin and the suppositories because from all the books I have read this week(6 or 7 on miscarriage), it can't hurt. I am still bleeding although it has been a week. It browns then turns red with activity. I wanted ttc last night just because I was crawling out of my skin with thinking about all this but worried my cervix was still open slightly and the bleeding would worsen. I have read all different timing for trying again. The Dr. said wait until I get my period. Online and some books say 3 months, and I also read that women get pregnant immediately. Who knows? I just hope I have a few fertile cycles left!!
Anyway, thanks for all your info and thoughts. My friends and family haven't been through this and basically can't understand. Have a great day and I will write you soon.
Lauri
Lauri--Thanks for the luck and baby dust! Right back atcha! It's funny about what you said about dreaming in pink & the girl clothes! I know exactly what you mean! I wore something pink every single day when I was pg hoping to somehow will my baby into being a girl!
Just finished my first cycle yesterday and started ttc. My dr. wanted me to wait 2 months, but there's just no way I can wait that long! I also read that there's no medical reason why you would have to wait that long. It's a personal thing, different for everyone, but you'll know when you're ready. So glad to have met you, even though it's under the worst of circumstances! I wish you all the luck in the world, whenever you decide it's right for you!
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