Thanks everyone for your hugs and thoughts.
I am mentally feeling more on top of things which is good. Although i got woken up tis morning by the sharpest stabbing pain in my lower abdomen, it had me doubled over in tears, both DH and i thought we'd be going to the ER. It's died down now to just a niggling pain which i have had the last few days. I have an ob appointment at 2 this arvo so will let him know about it, just hope and pray it's all ok and just my body readjusting.Will let you all know how it goes xx
Hey all,
Update from the ob appointment, I have an infection which he is quite concerned about, i am started on two different antibiotics and if the pain gets any worse i must go straight to hospital for antibiotics through IV. I am just so tired and don't need this!!!
Apart from that,all tissue etc was normal so that is good. He also said that he thinks bubs had only just passed away and probably just slowed down in growth in the last 2 weeks, strong little fighter! I have a follow up appointment next thurs with GP as Ob is away then an appoinment 2 weeks after with the ob again, which by then i will hopefully be all clear!!
I must wait 3 months before TTC on orders from my now specialist at the Foetal medicine Unit for my mega doses of Folic Acid to build up, bit of a shame but with this infection etc its all going to take time for us to be ready physically & emotionally. After the most painful internal the ob gave me today, DH has some serious waiting to do!! I am starting accunpuncture on Monday as well, hoping to get this body of mine back on track!!
Hoping this pain stays at bay(but is killing since he examined me) as the thought of going back to hospital is not very appealing at the moment.
Thanks again for all your support. xx
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I wish the news was better for you
But I think you are doing a great thing in starting acupuncture and focusing on getting your body ready over the next three months - you're doing an incredible service for the next occupant of your womb.
Meanwhile, I hope your pain settles down - hot water bottle? I practically strapped mine on over the weekend...
Also, you're not pg anymore, so hit up the painkillers if you really need to.
I feel like i have just crashed and burned today, the news of this stupid infection from the op has got me down again and i've been bawling all morning. I don't know how to explain how i feel today, just like it is all too much....and i'm angry at all the people who are so blessed to have beautiful babies that smoke/drink/do drugs while pregnant and do not realise how lucky they are to have a healthy bub growing inside of them. I know i have no right to judge them it's just how i feel today.I just feel upset & angry with everything and need to vent.
I need to leave the house and do some food shopping, but i just can't face it and i look like a big puffer fish from crying so much. AHHHH, i hate not being in control of my feelings & emotions at the moment.
Thanks for listening yet again, i think i'll call me SIL and see if see can come over and snap me out of mood. xx
Sparkles. I am so sorry that you are going through this. I wish I could reach out and take some of your pain away. I am thinking of you at the moment and sending you lots and lots of cyber
sparkles - lots of hugs. Take it easy. It's a horrible time, a horrible loss and the infection just makes a bad time worse.
I'm 2 weeks from my D&C and I tear up at the drop of the hat. Somedays (like today) I just feel like screaming.
Don't rush the grief, even if you find others don't understand it. It will take time. There will be good days, but there will be lots of bad days too. Be very gentle will yourself.
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First up: Cry as much and as hard as you can. It is 100% OK - and it will hurt far more to know that you held it back when you are feeling better.
Next: Why not judge ppl who drink/smoke/drug up? They all know it's bad for them. I'm not suggesting you tell them so, or say some very rude things to strangers (I did) but it is OK to be incredibly angry with them. Completely justified emotion.
Also: Don't ever feel like you have to snap out of a mood. If you really do (water nazis close your eyes) try having a long hot shower. It has really been working for me - I don't know why, but I always feel better when I am really clean.
AND: Is there someone else who can shop for you - just the necessities? Alternatively, do you have some massive sunglasses? I hate having puffy eyes, especially when it prompts ppl to ask "Are you OK?" because it always starts me up again. Is there anywhere near you where you can walk without seeing too many people? If so, go for a walk, hard as it seems, because I think fresh air is quite good for puffy eyes (although wind is annoying if you're crying)
Last of all: You're doing OK, you're going to be fine. You have heaps of support here.
SB - You make me laugh, i too am an advocate of long hot showers, DH just came home for a late lunch to give me hugs and i just told him i was going to have a shower as i always feel better after!!
Dh and I have decided to go food shopping tommorow together. That way i have moral support, we live in a small town so i am bound to have someone ask "how are you doing" or "are you ok?" and as much as i know they mean well, like you it always gets me going again. Thank you so much for your support. Sorry to hear about your news as well, hope your levels sort themselves out quickly, looks like we'll both have a bit of a wait ahead of us.
TB- It's amazing how many tears one body can produce. I just can't wait till the good days out number the bad. I have to keep reminding myself it's only been 1 week today as it seems to have been the longest week ever.
Hugs to all, it's so good to know we are all here for each other at these testing times in life.
Sparkles, very sorry for your loss. I went to a party a week after my loss & there was a girl there who was 21 weeks pregnant & smoking like a chimney. No offense to anyone but I would never do that myself & it broke my heart, it upset me so much I had a cry. So I know how you feel!!! xox
Hey thought i'd update you all.
It's been a tough run, got re admitted to hospital on sunday and have only just got home half an hour ago. Had a uterus infection so been on high dose of iv antibiotics, hopefully i'm all on the mend now. Feeling alot better in myself. Sooo good to be home, am now on oral antibiotics for the next 2 weeks till i have a check up with the ob. Am going to book in to get my hair done, and have an accupuncture appointment with someone who specialises in fertility next monday, so trying to get myself back on track. Anyway gotta run, feeling a little light headed, must slow down and look after myself.
Sparkles, sorry to hear that you have had to spend time in hosp... I know it's hard, but keep looking to the future and staying strong. In saying that you're allowed to cry, scream and be angry at the world... I really hope that you are looking after yourself xx
Reply With Quoteso sorry to hear of your loss... words fail me but I offer
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my thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time for you xx
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