T.O.J-I fully understand how you are feeling... i myself have had 4 early mc and have not known i was pregnant with any of them... i have always has irregular cycles and never thought anything of it... My first was the worst as i had no idea what was happening... Its an aweful feeling and worse because you start thinking if there was anything you could or should have done etc.... I went through depression after all of them, thinking i had done something to make it happen... The truth is sometime these things happen, there was problems with bubs or something....

I feel your pain and was actually balling my eyes out when i read your story as i remembered all the old feeling.... they never go away.... I'm sure you angel is in a better place now....

Big :hugs: and hope you have lots of support for this difficult time... i wish you well for the future and a h & h preg for when you decide to start TTC again...