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thread: I didnt even know i was pg....

  1. #1
    Registered User

    Oct 2006
    KA, Western Australia
    554

    I didnt even know i was pg....

    Until last night....Now its too late

    Af was late but when i started bleeding thats all i thought it was, as they have been irregular since having ds and i didnt think we dtd at the right time...I was mistaken...

    Lastnight about 4 hours after i had started light spotting, the bleeding all of a sudden got real heavy and, without going in to too much detail, just didnt look right, then i started getting severe cramping and could barely move so i got ds out of bed and called a taxi to take me to the hospital, When i got there i was asked if i was pregnant and i said no, millions of questions about labour and recovery with ds and then was asked "are you sure your not pregnant" thats when alarm bells started going off inside my head, I explained that we were TTC but i really didnt think that i had conceived, I had to do a test, and thats when i found out that i was pregnant, thats also when i learned i was losing my baby

    I feel guilty, like i should have known. I feel guilty for crying when i have my precious ds in my arms. I really feel devastated and lost right now. And i hate sitting here just knowing what my body is doing. Its so unfair


  2. #2

    Mar 2004
    Sparta
    12,662

    what an awful way to find out about your precious baby. I'm so sorry fr your loss.

  3. #3
    Registered User

    May 2007
    3,220

    I am very sorry for your loss.
    Take care

  4. #4
    Registered User

    Sep 2007
    Off with the fairies
    470

    I'm crying right , now how heart breaking for you I'm so sorry for your loss.

  5. #5
    Registered User

    Jun 2007
    Melbourne, ready to meet peeps IRL
    2,221

    I too feel that I may have lost one this month but didnt have it comfurmed but just had a 4 day late AF and very heavy flo with tummy cramps but not as bad as yours... So sorry for your lost Its hard as you found out that you were carrying and not just a feeling like me..

    I hope you start to feel better soon

  6. #6
    DoubleK Guest

    im so sorry to hear that, what a shame you didnt know,

    i hope your feeling ok!

  7. #7
    Registered User

    Oct 2007
    S/West Sydney
    1,794

    T.O.J-I fully understand how you are feeling... i myself have had 4 early mc and have not known i was pregnant with any of them... i have always has irregular cycles and never thought anything of it... My first was the worst as i had no idea what was happening... Its an aweful feeling and worse because you start thinking if there was anything you could or should have done etc.... I went through depression after all of them, thinking i had done something to make it happen... The truth is sometime these things happen, there was problems with bubs or something....

    I feel your pain and was actually balling my eyes out when i read your story as i remembered all the old feeling.... they never go away.... I'm sure you angel is in a better place now....

    Big :hugs: and hope you have lots of support for this difficult time... i wish you well for the future and a h & h preg for when you decide to start TTC again...

  8. #8
    Registered User

    Mar 2007
    6,979

    I'm so sorry you poor thing, you have been thru so much just now.... :hugs: i hope you are being looked after right now and have plenty of support around you. look after yourself and rest up heaps.

  9. #9
    Registered User

    Jan 2007
    7,197

    Ooooh hun I'm sorry to hear about your loss. :hugs:

  10. #10
    Registered User

    Oct 2006
    home sweet home.
    1,995

    Big cuddles, I am so sorry for your loss.

    Spring :hugs:

  11. #11
    Registered User

    Oct 2007
    1,256

    Im so sorry you had to find out that way :HUGS:

  12. #12
    Registered User

    Feb 2007
    2,068

    Big hugs. I am sorry for your loss.

  13. #13
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    Add Starfish on Facebook

    Apr 2007
    Sydney
    1,759

    :hugs: So sorry to hear of your loss. Hope you feel better soon.

  14. #14
    Registered User

    Nov 2004
    Chasing Daylight...
    2,034

    I'm sorry for your loss and I hope you gain some comfort from the smiles of your gorgeous little man. Be gentle with yourself while you grieve.

  15. #15
    Registered User

    Aug 2005
    werribee,victoria
    371

    So sorry to hear of your departed angel. What a horrible time of year to have this happen. i would think no wonder you didnt know when you have such a precious little on taking up so much of your time;it would be easy to be distracted. My prayers are with you and your family. Surround yourself with love and light, i hope things get better soon.

    xx Pauline

  16. #16
    Registered User

    Nov 2006
    BrisVegas
    1,467

    Jessikah, so sorry again to hear about this. Many Many hugs your way. Hope you start to feel better soon.

  17. #17
    Registered User

    Jul 2005
    Melbourne
    60

    So sorry to hear of your loss. Nothing can make you feel better but just know that many of us have been there and come through the other side.

  18. #18
    Registered User

    May 2007
    Out of my mind.... back in 10 mins.
    365

    OMG
    I hope the nurses were nice to you as some can be a bit uncareing.
    Don't feel guilty... its not your fault in any way.
    Try and enjoy christmas with your beautiful little man, as he needs his mum.
    I know it is easier said than done!!!! But I am putting on a brave face for my kids as I am not looking forward to christmas at all. But I do it for the kids as thats what christmas is for "the kids"

    Take care
    Chris

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