Thankyou every one, I know it takes time but I feel very crushed, my sprit and light have been shattered and I am struggling to find that light agian, Jenny...what can I say I am so sorry, though no words can bring comfort I just wish and pray that talking to other can start us on the road to healing, and finding our light. I have prayed that no-one ever has to endure this and that god can give us strength, courage and to let us know the joys of parenthood rather than just the pain. To know the small joys of hearing our children cry for the first time, to feel their comforting wamth on our skin, to smell their hair, to feel their tiny fingers wrap around our finger, to let them feel the sunlight on their faces, to allow our parents to see and hold a much wanted granchild and to see the look on their fathers face when he holds them in his arms for the first time, these are the things many take for granted. These are the small things very sadly missed. Lorrie.... was very much wanted for many reasons... my father passed away in April of this year suddenly and the day before he passed away, he was so excited to see the ultrasound pictures of her, we told him her name (for the first time as we had kept it a secret) The thought of her got many of us through the greiving for him and my mother held on so tighly to the memory of him snuggling beside her wriggling excitedly saying that he was excited because it had been so long since there was a little one in the house....so lorrie was wanted by many more than just us and is very sadly missed.