I had a miscarriage a little over two weeks ago. I had some bleeding in the morning, went to the ER, they did an exam and told me everything would probably be ok, but when we got the sonogram, my little baby was head first and had no heartbeat. The doctors gave me two options, to have something implanted to open my cervix, or to go home and try to deliver on my own. I wasn't sure what to do, so we headed home. On the ride home, i went into labor. We went back to the hospital and since i had lost so much blood and my bp was very low, they rushed me in for a d and c. I don't cry as much lately, but I feel lost. I feel like my husband does not understand, no one does. I feel like I go through the motions of the day, but I'm not living. I feel so empty and so sad. That last sonogram picture will not leave my head. When people ask about what happened, I never say that I 'lost' the baby. I feel like it makes it sound like my fault, which I know it wasn't. I always knew where that baby was and I couldn't wait for him/her to get here. I don't know where to go or what to do with myself - I don't know how long I'll be this way. I guess I'm just trying to find someone who can relate, which it seems like there are a lot of people here who have had similar situations. I am so empty right now and I don't know what to do.