Hello
I am new to the forum and already feel that I am not alone. I am 42 and found out Iwas pregnant for the second time (my son is 7). Becuase of illness I had delayed having a second and then thought that it was probably too late for a number of reasons. Anyway nature intervened and I fell pregnant in early Aug. mixed feelings were replaced by joy once I had told my husband and he was OK with it. We were just about to tell friends and family when I began to bleed (I had only just confided in my best friend - thank goodness I did because she was a supporton the day). Wnt to the obstetrician and as soon as the ultrasound screen came on I knew something was wrong. My precious baby had died some weeks earlier and I had what was called a missed abortion...just so devestating....3 weeks on and I am getting there but like today I have my moments where I just want to cry and cry; at first I looked for "reasons" to what I had done to cause it, I've just about stopped that and the intense anger (at no-one) isgoing- sounds crazy but I keep looking for some sign that all will be OK and that i will have another baby. My husband and I have agreed to try again but only for a year...but I'm 42 and who knows? Seeing the obstrician next week - scared silly to what he might say.

My thoughts go out to you all

Sally