Firstly I want to say i am so sorry for your loss. I understand the dark, horrible, sad place that you are at right now and its just not fair.
I went through a really hard phase with each of my mc's and I found that counselling really really helped me after the second one.
It doesnt matter if you were "only" 9 weeks pregnant, to you that was a perfect little baby growing inside and to have that taken away from you is so hard to deal with.
Over time you will grow stronger - make sure you give your heart emough time to heal, it takes a while to feel "fine" again.
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