Hi All

Im brand new on this site but i just felt i needed to talk to someone who wasnt going to tell me 'its for the best", if i hear that one more time im going to lose it.

Well my story goes like this, i went for my 12 week scan Mon week ago and all was perfect, heartbeat of 174bpm and fully formed kicking baby. I then got my NT results back with my BT and i tested high risk for Trisomy 13 &18 so i was booked in the following Tues for a CVS but i was pretty confident. Well we arrived for the CVS Tues arvo and they proceeded to do an US first, i could see myself that baby wasnt moving and there was no flicker of the heart, the Dr then came in and told me my baby had died during the past week. Well since then my world has crashed and i just dont know what to do or where to turn. My DH really never wanted another child and i had to fight him tooth and nail for him to agree (which he did and was then happy when i fell, typical man!) So now im just so lost but as i already have kids i cant let anyone know as im suppose to be the strong one and feel terrible when my kids worry about me so i just keep solidering on each day.

When will i get back to my old self?????????????????????????????????????????????? ??????????