MIscarried twice, result : 1 livebirth

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Hi there,

I really don't know how to approach his other than it is so difficult to have gone through 2 miscarriages with the same person, to have one livebirth, and for them to leave you and your child.

Background:

First miscarriage: he intentionally would rive crazy and drove over a huge pothole, Miscarried 10 minutes later

Second miscarriage: Chasing me with a hose(was supposed to be summertime fun), fell over a rock and onto hard conrete, miscarried 5 hours later.

Livebirth: Push me into a door, down a flight of stairs an onto the ground, all while he claimed to love me and want to marry me.

I just need some advice. Those children that I miscarried... it was for natural cause? I have gone to counselling and not even brought his up, but it hurts me.

Can anyone offer any advice or suggestions?

Thank you.