Hi all,
I got married 28th February this year and we decided after we were married we would start trying for a baby. To our surprise i got pregnant a lot quicker than we though i would because i have a bicornuate uterus and we'd wrongly assumed it would be hard but we were both so excited and told our parents, brothers and sisters and my husbands best mate.

I had a dating scan and as my husband hadn't told work we decided i would go on my own - BIG MISTAKE! I was nervous that the scan would show that baby had implanted on the middle part which may not be able to support the baby, but excited to be able to see it. Upon the ultra sound it was found that my baby didn't have a heart beat , i was so devastated and shocked - i was in a bit of disbelieve really! They measured it and it was the size of a 7wk 5day pregnancy but i should have been 8wk 5 days. On the drive home i'm surprised i didn't cause an accident as i cried all the way home and i started thinking about the week prior and what happened to cause this too happen - even though deep down i knew it was just one of those things. I'd called my husband to get him too meet me at home and he knew something was wrong, we cuddled on the couch for hours - he is my rock.

I went to the doctors and they referred me onto the Pregnancy Assessment Clinic in at the local hospital. The waiting around for an hour in the waiting room was hard with all these pregnant woman in the room but my hubby was their supporting me - i think i would of been a mess if he hadn't been their. They didn't want to do a D&C, as most woman will just spontaneously miscarry, so now i am just waiting. It's been 4 days since my scan and there's been no bleeding and the way i see it baby died (not that it was alive without a heart)/stopped growing a week and half ago now so i don't know if it will spontaneously abort!! I've got an ultra sound appointment next week (Tue) to see whats happening - and in the mean time I'm just waiting. My hubby went back to work today but it's hard for me to work - I'm a family day carer and work from home so have taken 2 weeks off, I know I'll get upset if i don't give myself time and i can't run to the toilet to cry with 5 children in my house!

The process of grief is hard at the moment, as i know it's still inside me, it may be dead but i still have some of the pregnancy signs. My breasts have been so sore and tender - had such a bad night sleep as i tossed and turned trying to get comfortable as laying on my breasts hurt - they felt bruised in away! Hopefully on Tuesday they will organize to go in and take it so my body can begin to recover.