I'm so sorry to hear about your loss.
*big hug*
You will deff. find the love and support you need here, so many amazing women to help you out.
I don't really have anything to offer, except i really hope you get your dream of a baby. It's a long hard road, and will hurt...but I really hope it gets easier for you sooner rather than later. best of luck with it!
*hugs again*