Thankyou for your kind words. Unfortunatley we never found out what happened to Ella. The post-mortem only revealed that she had stopped growing at 21 weeks and probably struggled to stay alive then eventually died at 25 week, probably shortly after my ultrasound 3 weeks before I found out she had gone. I don't understand why they didn't see she was measuring so little at my 23 week ultrasound... so confused. But I now have to let go and try and heal. She was to beautiful for earth and is playing with all the other angel babies now.
Manda - my heartahces with your loss and grief. Your precious little Ella knew she was loved and loved so completely , and now she is always with you loving you back, just close your eyes and reach out with your heart and you will find her there.
Grief is a tough journey and I hope you are finding a way through. As Inanna said, you will get through this, even though it doesn't feel like it right now. Don't aim for there, but just each day as it comes, or even each moment as it comes. Time doesn't heal, but what it does do, is let you incorporate your feelings and experiences into the person you now are.
If you have questions, don't be too afraid to ask them.
I'm so sorry to hear about your little girl Ella =[ i hope you find support here xxx
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