My silent angel...

[~ Mylitta ~]

This morning I was the most excited I have ever been in my life. I was 8 weeks and 1 day pregnant and more than ready to see my little bundle's heart beating away at my first obstetrician appointment.

My husband and I arrived and had a chat to the obstetrician then I jumped up on the table ready for the ultrasound. The first thing he noticed was that I had a retroverted uterus, but that it wasn't a problem. Then he found a nice looking pregnancy sac. But that's when the best day of my life turned into my worst. He couldn't find my baby.

I was then sent downstairs to the high-tech ultrasound machines. After the longest wait of my life I was scanned, only to have it confirmed that there was no baby. Apparently I have had either a silent miscarriage or a blighted ovum, but I hate the sound of both. They both essentially mean that my baby has died...

I am totally devastated and haven't been able to stop crying since the ultrasound. How can my baby be gone when I loved it so much already and I still have such strong pregnancy symptoms?!

I'm booked in for Sat morning to have a curette because my body hasn't realised that the baby is gone yet and I haven't miscarried yet. I'm really scared about having it done, but my obstetrician has assured me that he hasn't had any complications or subsequent infections after any of his procedures.

I just want my baby back She was our wedding night angel.

[Nadine216]

I am so very sorry for your loss

I wish you all the strenght on your road through mourning

[DoubleK]

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss Krystie, i really wish our excitement and love for our unborn babies were enough to help them survive, but sometimes its just not meant to be.

im not sure what else i can say, you will feel better in time, just let yourself cry and grieve for as long as you need to, your little angel will always be with you



Rachael.

[Antheia]

I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your little baby. It is so hard and it will take time but you will get through it. I'm thinking of you through this time.

[AJC]

Krystie - I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I had d&c after both of my m/c, I was quite scared the first time but it was fine.

You will cry alot and you will experience many different emotions - it will take time. The heartache will always be there and you will always hold a very special place in your heart for this bub but you do learn to cope better with time, just take it day at a time.

I planted trees in my garden for my angel bubs.

The belly belly 'community' is very supportive - you've come to the right place.

[lavenderpegasus]

I just wanted to let you know that I love you sweetie and that I'm here for you...


love
LP





NB: You can have your forum back now, just stalked you to deliver LOVE

[MistyFying]

Krystie I'm so sorry your baby passed away

[cheekyfrog]

Krystie, I'm so sorry that you lost your wedding night baby. Be kind to yourself and take time to grieve, you'll feel like you're on an emotional rollercoaster for a while so I hope you're surrounded by all the love and support you need.

Our little angels watch over us on our journeys. I hope your journey will be filled with much joy in the future. Much love.

[ElleJay]

Hun, I'm so very sorry you lost your precious bub - I'm gonna be here if you ever need to talk to anyone

[mom2PnE]

I'm sorry for your loss! I'm 7w 3d pg if thats what you call it and waiting to m/c after finding a small empty sac Friday and getting my levels checked. So I understand what your going through!

[~ Mylitta ~]

mom2PnE, I'm so sorry that you are going throught he same thing It's just heartbreaking isn't it? I was so looking forward to seeing a little heartbeat on the scan, and it was such a shock to find out that things had gone wrong.

[mom2PnE]

mom2PnE, I'm so sorry that you are going throught he same thing It's just heartbreaking isn't it? I was so looking forward to seeing a little heartbeat on the scan, and it was such a shock to find out that things had gone wrong.

Very heartbreaking! I still tried to have hope with every blood test, but there isn't any. I just hope that as the days go by that it becomes a little easier to deal with. I'm so distrought and I don't know what to do, I feel so lost!

[Heaven]

How are you going Krystie?