Oh hun what a frightening experience ....... I am so sorry for your loss of your angel.... I had a ruptured ectopic with mass internal bleeding and too almost died, I lost 2l of blood and required a blood transfusion.... Physically it took a good couple of months to not be so tired, even getting out of bed to go to the bathroom was exhausting! I took iron supplements which helped..... All I can say is be kind to yourself and take your time mentally and physically too, cry/yell/scream what ever you need to do, do it you and your man have been through a lot xxxxx