Not Again.....

**rufalina** · February 1st, 2009, 12:30 PM

Why oh why did I pee on that stick. Stoopid evil pee sticks...

I was pretty sure I was pregnant, so Friday I POAS and yep there it was!!! So cool, I was still waiting for the return of AF after finishing breastfeeding my son. How lucky am I. So I am booked in for a dating scan in 2 weeks, as we cant be sure how far along I am. And I hadn't told anyone yet, and I want to make sure before getting to excited...

Because less than 24 hrs later I started bleeding, and knew it was over... again....

I went through this 3 times before I got a sticky pg with my DS.

If I hadn't peed on that stoopid stick I would never have known, and today I would be excited. AF is back and I get start to TTC. Instead I am sad and disappointed that I lost another precious angel.

How many times do I have to go through this?

**briggsy's girl** · February 1st, 2009, 12:32 PM

RUf i'm so very sorry hunny - i wish i could say something more profound but it's just not coming to me - know you're in my thoughts babe

huge hugs

BG

**Tegam** · February 1st, 2009, 12:37 PM

That is so sad, i am sorry that you have lost another dream!

**MrsB26** · February 1st, 2009, 12:55 PM

Oh Ruf

You have offered me so many comforting words during my losses and i wish i had a way with words like you do. I am so sorry you have lost another precious angel baby, i am thinking of you and crying with you also.

**csab** · February 1st, 2009, 12:58 PM

I am so very very sorry Ruf, you are in my thoughts. I wish there was something I could say that could make this easier for you, but I know only to well that there isnt. I pray that the next time you get a BFP that it is that much wanted sticky sticky one. hugs

**Sequoia** · February 1st, 2009, 01:01 PM

Oh Rufi.

**tiggerlinda** · February 1st, 2009, 06:38 PM

Oh sweetie I am soo sorry

wishing the very best for you babe. Silly sticks but we all do it hun. Take care of you and bye little angel

**MantaRay** · February 1st, 2009, 07:10 PM

Oh hun

**rufalina** · February 2nd, 2009, 09:15 AM

Having a shocker today... work IT systems blew up on the weekend, and I had to come in today to fix it up.

So knowing you are all here and thinking of me really heaps.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

**tiggerlinda** · February 2nd, 2009, 10:02 AM

Always are Damm the IT things

**S'rose** · February 2nd, 2009, 10:09 AM

IT is always such an inconvenience. I am sorry you have had to go in.

Always hugging you precious lady. Be kind to yourself.

**dusty** · February 3rd, 2009, 05:24 PM

Oh hun. No. No no no. I am so sorry. Gee they can be a godsend and also evil those pee sticks. You are in my thoughts

.

This may not be the best time to say it, but hun, you can get there. Look at your darling boy and believe. You are strong but you can lean on us anytime.

I am so sorry

**Bumperstump Cummerbund** · February 3rd, 2009, 06:41 PM

I'm so sorry Ruf

I wrote a HUGE reply to you when you first posted, but it got lost. I'm not in as profound or even intelligent a mood as I was then, but I'll try

I know how it feels, beating yourself up for POAS because then you might've not known. I had this happen recently, and one of my close friends said that, while I may wish I hadn't known, in time I'll be glad I did, because it means I can acknowledge my angel. I know you have other angels, and you remember each one - this angel deserves the same love and remembrance from it's Earth Mummy, rather than just slipping away unnoticed.

I don't say any of this to upset, and I'm actually having difficulty typing through the tears - if I have upset you or anyone, please PM me.