I'm so sorry Ruf

I wrote a HUGE reply to you when you first posted, but it got lost. I'm not in as profound or even intelligent a mood as I was then, but I'll try

I know how it feels, beating yourself up for POAS because then you might've not known. I had this happen recently, and one of my close friends said that, while I may wish I hadn't known, in time I'll be glad I did, because it means I can acknowledge my angel. I know you have other angels, and you remember each one - this angel deserves the same love and remembrance from it's Earth Mummy, rather than just slipping away unnoticed.

I don't say any of this to upset, and I'm actually having difficulty typing through the tears - if I have upset you or anyone, please PM me.