Our Little Angels

[Daytona's Mummy]

Kim, First of all I'd just like to applaud you for your strength for both being there for your sister and being strong enough to talk about it. We can really hear your pain in your words and can only begin to imagine the pain your sister must be going through. You were there for her through it all, her shoulder to cry on and rock to keep her strong. I'm sure she would be hurting now just like you as your nieces birthday draws near, keep trying to patch things up, letting her know you truely love her and understand what she is feeling. Let her know your pain too, it will be helpful for you both to be there for eachother. And as they say, if you first don't suceed, try, try again... you'll eventually break through the barrier she may have put up.
I really think you should seek some counceling for your experience, I'd really hate to see you experience such emmence fear when it comes your own turn to experience the joy of being a mum, you have made a fantastic step by talking about it on here, but don't stop here.
It's so heart breaking to hear of someone so young such as yourself to experience such trauma. Please don't think your story is any lessor comparrison to others, you have every right to morn your loss just as much as anyone else does. Cook some angel / fairy cupcakes on Sunday and light a candle for Trinity and eat one for Neo.