I've just come home after a d&c in hospital.
I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks, but I thought I was 9 weeks. Our little one's heartbeat could not be found on the ultrasound, and according to measurements of the grow of the foetus, it was only 6weeks, but I had reached 9weeks.

I've asked my gynae dr if I can miscarriage naturally rather than have my body go through a traumatic procedure. He said that I could and had been spotting for 6 days with having no pain, no blood, no clotts. Just the spotting. Till Friday 2:30am came and was in severe pain. I always have period pains, but this pain was just unbearable and I kept praying that this is all I would feel and wouldn't go through a d&c. After 30mins, my pains worsened and when I was in position like giving bith, i pushed and something felt odd. It was a clott, and never stopped. After a change in pad, I had filled one pad in less than 5min.

I find myself asking my husband to bring me into hospital as this wasn't normal, and the bleeding was just nonstop. The clots kept coming when contractions came. I find myself in the emergency hospital in bed, being constantly changed as the bleeding became heavier and heavier. I clott so much that I thought I had passed the foetus.

It is now 530am, and the pains worsen and find myself feeling dizzy cuz of too much blood loss. My sweat is cold and lose my hearing for a short moment. Contractions come again. I get hooked onto a drip as I am dehydrating.

I have emergency doctors conducting a ductile. Which is not painful but very uncomfortable. They open my vaginal way to remove more clots. I'm crying of such discomfort. I have my husband who holds me and keeps me calm. It is then that i start to feel traumatized physicaly and emotionally.

I know I will get through this but Im so upset and feel lonelier than ever. My husband has been wonderful and I thank God that I have him. But I need to grieve, and I feel that I will not cope in time...I know I will overcome this, but I am so upset and traumatized.

This was our first pregnancy. We're just newlyweds who got married in June 2007. I miss our little one and this little one gave me no grief during that 6 weeks I had him/her in me. No morning sickness. I had felt the healthiest with him/her than I was before. And now, i only feel loneliness and heartache with my little one...