Gemini - oh blossom. You did the reply thing ok!

I had a similar experience of being first on the scene of an accident not long after one of my losses, and it shook me to my very core. I so understand how you were feeling. I am so glad you were on your way to your Mum's, because I think it was good for you to be with her. For me I was on the way to my counsellors, thank god. When I got there, early and shaken, she just held my hand, and told me I was early and she was with another client. I went away to a local aprk and just sat quietly for a while, but her holding my hand made all the difference in the world to me. If you find you are really struggling with your feelings, try a counsellor. I am glad I found mine, she is truly the most amazing person. I am ever grateful of the sense of peace she could help me find.

But the rest of your day? Way too werid for me to really think about. Just a crazy coincidence?

It's so hard to get back into a "routine", just see how you go and try not to force it, on the days it just isn't going to work for you. It's ok to cry at weird times or at any time. Grief is hard and unpredictable, one day at a time.