Hi

I never thought I would find myself in this section of the forum but sadly I am here.

On Thursday 3/01/08 at 12.10am we were all excited about hearing our baby's heartbeat at the doctors appointment we were having before our ultrasound the same afternoon. My DH took a extra long lunch to attend both appointments. The docs appointment went perfect. The doc not only heard the heartbeat but he also felt movement. He was happy everything was going well.

Our ultrasound app was at 1.45pm. We came home had some lunch then raced each other to the ultrasound so excited to see our baby and find out the sex of our baby.

10 mins in the U/S, a strange look come over the lady's face. We knew something wasn't right. " one sec, I just need to get the doctor" she said then she left the room for approx 10 mins. A doctor and her returned. the doctor looked at me and said quite bluntly, " Sorry but your baby doesn't have a heartbeat.... Its DEAD!" I looked at my DH, it couldn't be right. 1 hr before we had heard and felt movement. i asked him to check again.... but nothing.

We were given 10 mins in the room to " come to terms " with it, then told to go back to our doctors to see what to to next.

Back to the docs we went, in disbelief. Our GP was fantastic but he still couldn't believe that within the hr we were there to the U/S, our baby had died.

He advised us to go to our local hospital emergency dept, which happens to be the biggest womens hospital in SE QLD. There we waited for 5 hrs in the waiting room before being told we had to wait another 4 hrs before we wold be able to see a doc. With that we left the public hospital and went to the Wesley Private hospital with saw me straight away and were so nice and understanding. We had private health to start with but with our heads swimming we it didn't click to go there in the first place !

The next day we went and saw our gyno who saw us through our IVF and he was also shocked. I had no symptoms of miscarriage. No bleeding, no pain... nothing.

That afternoon i was booked into theater for a D&C. I was told that it was the best way for the " removal" as i didn't labor well and it was risky for him to make me deliver.

3pm came and I remember the oxygen mask being put on my face then I drifted off to sleep. When I woke my baby was gone. I have never felt so empty and so sad.

3 days later I was released from hospital.
At home its so hard to pack away the bassinet, and change table we had only bought the weekend before this happened.

We still dont know if it was a boy or girl as the doc couldn't tell, but he assures us that we will find out when the " tissue" results come back in 1 weeks time.

Well this is my story so far........