I am so sorry for your loss - and the terrible treatment you received from the medical profession where you are.

I haven't had a loss as late as you have experienced, and words seem so hollow for the agony you are going through.

Your friends having bubbas have probably amplified your feelings about them becoming closer, they are probably not sure how to care for you either. One of my best friends rang me when I was 11 weeks preg last year to tell me she was 4 weeks preg, we lost our angel, and she has just had her daughter - but there was a huge gap when I openly had to admit to her I couldn't share in her joy at that moment cos I was grieving. I have been lucky in falling again so quickly.

Perhaps you need more than counselling at this point - of course I am not a doctor, but you should further medical advice and even meds if appropriate.

good luck in your journey - you will have that bundle in your arms you long for.